Amazing weather

hey there everyone..

its been a whole and i have not drunk any alcohol, i was invited to a few parties yesterday, didnt go, and i also have some social gatherings that involve alcohol to go to today but im not planning to go.. I want to see if i can lose weight..

The weather was fuckin amazing today.. i woke up at 5, went to jog by the beach.. was done by around 7.. went to the gym.. got a massage.. then took a shower.. ran a few errands and then back home.. had a light meal and now im staring into space thinking what i wanna do..

Ive been thinking so much.. Im really sick of my life..

My friends are traveling next week to portugal but they havent asked me to go.. i cant believe this is happening.. they know i love portugal,i dont really get it, and im so mad,and i really wana go.. its true that theres a bit of a falling out going on.. but i cant get over it.. This really sucks ;/