Amazing weather

hey there everyone..

its been a whole and i have not drunk any alcohol, i was invited to a few parties yesterday, didnt go, and i also have some social gatherings that involve alcohol to go to today but im not planning to go.. I want to see if i can lose weight..

The weather was fuckin amazing today.. i woke up at 5, went to jog by the beach.. was done by around 7.. went to the gym.. got a massage.. then took a shower.. ran a few errands and then back home.. had a light meal and now im staring into space thinking what i wanna do..

Ive been thinking so much.. Im really sick of my life..

My friends are traveling next week to portugal but they havent asked me to go.. i cant believe this is happening.. they know i love portugal,i dont really get it, and im so mad,and i really wana go.. its true that theres a bit of a falling out going on.. but i cant get over it.. This really sucks ;/

quit drinking

Qarary il yideed: stop drinking
Reason: Diet
Clarification: For the past 2 weeks ive been drinking alot but i cant seem to get drunk.. So i thought, y not quit this nasty habit all at once.

SUPPORT ME

The past weekend was OK.. Went to a gathering on thursday, its usually loads of fun, but i didnt enjoy it at all, and i drank so much but couldnt get drunk, i didnt dance, didnt want to go crazy.. it was ok..

Friday: St. Patrick's Day party.. Had 4 cups of sangria, then some red label, and nothinggg.. then i went to another party and had some GREEN label and nothing!!! Danced a little but wasnt in the mood...

and noww BACK TO WORK.. cya guys

"chilled gathering"

Good morning people,
You wont believe the night ive had yesterday, i went to a chilled gathering at a friend's house.. Had alot to drink 6ab3an..I went back home around 2.. threw up everything in my stomach, i was laying down there ila a7ad i6ig bab dary wana 7agraaa malikhilg agoooom.. 3ogob ishwaya agoom ila il waldaa..
"intay tawa ga3da itraj3eeen?"
and im like shiiitttttt.... "laaaa'!!"
and shes like "haw 9ij chinna wana mara sima3tich"
gitlaha "yoma ana lail7een feeny ka7a gitlich ams"
chan tgool "wee ee khala9 ti9bi7een 3ala khair"
and im like pheeewww
anyways so she leaves my room i sleep a few hrs and wake up this morning with a little bit of headache a little bit of nausea, i decide to eat yoghurt just plain yoghurt (ilmara3i) .. I always have some before drinking and after if i can take it.. kalait ni9 il 3ilba chan iyeeboonli sandwiches and orange juice. Fajaa chan ityeeni il lo3aa.. oh shit.. waroo7 il 7amam waraji3 killll ilyoghurtt.. DAMN
wal7een khayfa akil shay waraj3a, im gona have a little bit of cereal Special K. Hope i can hold it down.
Ma3zooma 3irs ilyom..but i hope i can go back to sleep now cuz ra7 as'har.. and 5 hrs of sleep is not enough.
So yesterday at the gathering, theres this girl that ive known min ziman, a3arif isimha wit3arif ismi ga3da wiyaha cham mara bss ya3ni 3omirna ma solafna salfa 9ijiyaa, and i dont like her, marta7laha killish.. shes kinda weird.. and she's gay OR bisexual.. i dont know.. anyways so i see her at the party amss awalshay salam oo bs khala9.. 3ogob ishwaya bss iskarat chan ityeeeni.. haa shakhbarich.. we've never actually talked much but i know ina borjich chithy w i know ina chithy o chithy.. she starts telling me few things about myself and im like WHOA! and she asks me about this girl that i know.. and im like "someone wants to get some" .. oo bss ajamilha ishway and she leaves.. weirdo..
anyways wai3 chabdi taglib.. talk later

Nothing new

I just made the most amazing pasta that i bought from Dean and Deluca. Khosh mazaj ilyom awal ma gimt ishtahait asaweeli pancakes.. Chan agoom asaweeli oo 6la3aw naar with whipped cream and strawberries.. oo gabil ishwayah yi3t chan asaweeli il pasta with some pesto.. and i had it.. Al7een im craving some dessert bss ma feeni shada asawi.. I have my own little kitchen next to my room..bs i never use it for anything other than drinks o sandwiches or saralee cake. Ilyom ana aby ag3ad bilbait ma feeny 6al3a fa gilt khal i take advantage.. Btw Dean and Deluca is my new favorite place to shop for food.. Ive been going 3 times a week..
Let me tell u about my weekend..
Wednesday right after work dazaita il shalay dropped off my stuff and went over to a Jose's shalay,the plan was to hang out there for a while.. have a few drinks then go to a party.. then go back to my shalay to sleep.. None of my friends came with me, i was alone.. Went over to Jose's, hung out, ila fajaa mako parties!! Everyone had plans for thursday, and everyone was staying in on wednesday.. anyways one of his friends came over, 3arafny 3alaiha g3adat lay il 12 taqreeban then she left.. I was the only one that was drinking.. I had too many drinks bs i wasnt drunk.. When she left gimna insolif ana oo jose.. and he was trying to make a move i could tell.. but he was good.. he behaved himself.. I was talking the whole time.. At around 3:30 i decided to leave.. Left to my shalay, which was 3 min away.. and arrived there, got into bed, stared in the dark and passed out.. I wasnt drunk so i was thinking very clearly, and i didnt know what i was doing.. and it didnt feel good.. I didnt know what i wanted.. And i still dont.. Woke up the next day really early.. Went out for a jog, had breakfast.. then met up with jose again, went to his place played some boardgames.. then i left, went to a friends house we hung out by the pool, i needed to be with different people.. Had lunch, played a little volleyball, a little cards then went home.. The big plan was to party that night.. Took a shower,did my hair, dressed up, called jose and then hes like come to the shalay we're gona hang out until we go to the party and im like no way i drive to the shalay again and im DEAD TIRED.. fajaa chan agoola u know what, im gona sleep.. walbis pijama wanam.. without regretting without anything.. Wake up next morning, refreshed,go out for breakfast, buy a couple things, join my family in the shalay lay ilail sleep there, and come back this morning.. Ya3ni there was supposed to be a whole lot of partying going on this weekend but there was nothing!!

And today, i have no plans, im gonna stay in and watch movies,and smoke alot, ive been smoking lately.. it has been keeping me calm..

I want to leave the country for a while.. Im looking for jobs abroad.. Wish me luck

Kol ma zadat il mi7an

Likwait likwait biladona il kuwait arwa7oona soorooha arwa7ina sooroohaaa! This is my favorite national song ever.. It'thakirni of my childhood with my cousins kina inshoof operatat oo na7fith il rag9a winghany.. cute

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BcUqr_dphSM&feature=related

the other day ri7t 7ag wa7da tigra il finjan.. it scared the living bejesus out of me, kil il kalam ili galatli iyah 9ij.. itgooli whats going on in my life, shno a7aty oo shino afaker feeh, o il nas ili ib 7ayati and everything.. it was interesting.. bss ma gidart anam that night min kithr ma ga3da afakir.. oo gali 3an ashyaa bit9eeer in the near future but i dont believe in that, mafe a7ad ya3lim il ghaib..

aby ashtirik ib nady ya nass i need someone to motivate me bss killishh makoo bss zahbeen 7ag il kharab.. oo haba ib healthy food 3ishtaw.. kila diet food its sick.. im watchin four christmases i really wanna watch it bss its a really bad copy ;/ i love love love reese witherspoon

Cutie pie

Guess what.. I like someone.. I really like him.. JOSE..Hes so cute.. we've been spending so much time together.. He left for Dbai today.. and i really miss him.. and he called me min ilma6ar before he flew then lama wi9al the hotel dagli hes like the whole flight ive been thinking yala mita o9al.. oo laish moo 3ashan i wana party or go out..im thinking aby adiglich.. what r u doing to me.. and im like aha ok .. ya3ni ga3da atithaigal :P .. we're not together.. i just know he kinda likes me and he knows i kinda like him.. its cute.. and he like if u get a fonecall at at 2 in the morning dont pick up..its gona be a drunk phonecall and im gonna say alot of stuff that im not supposed to.. and i laugh and tell him imbala im gonna pick up.. i wanna hear what ur gonna say when ur not sober.. and hes like no no dont..bs bil9ij he doesnt drink.. so he was joking

I want to spend the whole weekend at home.. im really tired and need my rest.. Nomti wayid mi3tafsaa it sucks.. aby a3adilha 7ag ildawam..im on a strict strict diet.. i want to lose 6 pounds by the summer..

3eed il wa6ani

Hellloo everybody kil 3am wintaw bkhair oo il dad likom yali kintaw bil kuwait.. I personally spent my vacation in london oo rada today morning at 6am. i spent 6 days there and spent all my money.. il soog 9ayer irkheee9!!!! Oo 6ab3an i took advantage and spent it all away ma boga hdoom maboga jowaty ma boga 9owayigh... 6ab3an loooya oo mashyy o ma akil wayid so i hope i lost weight..

What sucked was a few of my friends ili ray7a 3ashanhom theyre doing their masters in manchester, kanaw biyooon london to spend a few days together 6ala3 3indihom projects and shit and all they could do was weekends.. so i just saw them for 3 days ;/ that really sucked..

I had a blast in london... didnt party alot.. just chilled in lounges, didnt even drink alot..most of the time i went out with friends that dont drink.. one night we went to a salsa clubwith these friends that also did not drink.. but it was my last night and i really wanted to drink so i kept ordering mojitos and everyone thought they were virgins.. Of course i told the waiter to keep them coming and put them on a separate bill.. Lool a few hrs later one of the trainers in the club asks meto dance and i go up and dance salsa and theyre like wtf min mita rawan targi9 salsa :P and i rocked damn ! Ba3DAIN they wanted to go home and chill and im like fuck that im going out so i meet up with a few friends we go out to a club.. i keep drinking mojitoosss and go back home at 4.. i eat everytthing in the kitchen and sleeepp..

Other than that.. im meeting this dude for marriage in the nxt few wks..ohwa mitqadimli min gabil bs at that time i was in a 5 yr relationship so i wasnt interested..bss oma mayta 3alay oo ga3da it7in so i think we're gonna meet up..bss 3omri ma shifta.. i dont mind meeting him though..lama gilt 7ag omi ina i dont mind meeting him IN9ADMAT!! cuz for the past 5 yrs kil wa7id iyeeeni arfitha bidoon la asal mino ohwa wain yishtighil shino mawthoo3a... thats cuz i was in a relationship wili a7iba taris 3aini.. and there were ALOT of guys in these 5 yrs.. fa il walda imkayfaa.. but we'll c what happenss

Anyways im really tired.. ill write later and tell u what happened..